today was the first official day of our preschool playdates! and i have to tell you...i had SO much fun! really, i did.
it reminded me just how cool the Lord is to create such beautiful, creative, captivating, and curious little people. preschoolers are completely awesome and adorable and here's just one reason; two of the little girls were asked separately what they had learned today in class, both answering,
"i learned about cookies!" umm...ok. i don't remember teaching them about cookies, but if that's what they learned, then so be it! *smile
i figured we'd spend our first time together learning about each other, our names, our families, and do a little song and devotion. we focused on the letters of their names, had sharing time with their 'family drawings', and made beaded name necklace/bracelets for craft time. and one of the most important things we did today was all contributed to the "playdate rules" board, each giving one good example that should be included. my all-time favorite,
'no whining - be joyful'. *wink
and then something happened...
after everyone had gone home with their respective mommies, i asked jess if she had fun at her first day of school. she timidly replied with a nod and then said,
"...but i'm a little bit upset." my mind triggered, thinking, perfect! a prime opportunity to jump into her little head and heart to see what's going on. i asked her to come sit on my lap so that i could listen to why she was a little bit upset.
and this is what she said...
"
well, i went first after my friend, when my other friend was supposed to go next {here, she's talking about when she took cuts at the sink to wash hands. she had already apologized to her little friend, but obviously still felt bad. and then she continued...}.
and you're the teacher."i gulped. is she saying what i think?
"yes, hunny, i AM your teacher! cool, huh?!"again, she sheepishly nodded, but this time it was an obvious 'no'.
she. doesn't. like. me. as. her. teacher? my heart hurt just a little bit.
"i don't want you to be my teacher", she responded with her nod.
"you're lizzy's teacher and i want lizzy's mommy to be my teacher."ok, i kind of see where this is going - so i continue to encourage her with my best, explaining what a true blessing it is to get to stay home and teach her. for her to be taught wonderful things by her own mommy. i forced my most uplifting voice out of my mouth, full of hope and promise...every bit of it true. i squeezed a small smile from her lips when i was finished, with her saying,
"can i go back and color now?" with a big hug and loves, i let her go.
i was left thinking to myself, am i truly prepared for this? did i do my best to prepare her? concerning the latter, obviously not. she taught me a lesson with her toddler concerns and even though they hurt for a minute, i understood that she is learning right along with me. i understand that she is in a unique position for mommy to be the teacher for not only her, but other wee ones. she's learning. but most importantly, i'm learning the biggest lesson of all.
ultimately, the Lord holds her precious heart in His hands. but He has obliged me to take care of her here and now. so as i teach her her abc's, i pray the lessons go so much deeper...leaving a lasting impression of good memories and happy thoughts of her and mommy. at home. learning together.